What if today were your last? 

What comes to mind when asked, “What if today were your last?” Some people would try to cram as many pleasurable experiences as possible into their last 24 hours. “I’m going to do what I want!”. Others might prepare their will and other legal documents, relieving their loved ones of some burden and complications post-death. Still others would spend every moment with their loved ones telling and showing their love for them. But what about God—does He enter your mind?

The beauty of powerlessness

From our beautiful and ancient Church heritage comes many prayers to aid us in the surrendering to Jesus of our loveless thoughts and self-protecting ways. Yet it remains a seemingly monstrous task to actually do it: to surrender to Him. And perhaps it is because at the center and foundation of surrendering is the primary truth of our own powerlessness.

I made Jesus suffer for me  

A decade back, I prayed myself through the Ignatian retreat that the Jesuit father took Mother Teresa through in 1959 (found in appendix B of Come Be my Light). Sometimes the wording he gave in his instructions stood out for me. One such time was his instruction to her that stated, “To spend a day in reparation for the sufferings I have made Jesus bear for me.”

I grew up hearing Jesus suffered for me on the cross. But I’ve never heard I made Jesus suffer for me. Wow, a paradigm shift.